{"id":1041,"date":"2014-06-28T01:02:44","date_gmt":"2014-06-28T00:02:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/w7m.3ee.myftpupload.com\/?p=1041"},"modified":"2014-06-24T21:43:39","modified_gmt":"2014-06-24T20:43:39","slug":"composure","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/?p=1041","title":{"rendered":"Composure"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I have no knowledge<br \/>\nof my parents\u2019 births.<br \/>\nWhether sunshine tapped on the window,<br \/>\nthe wind strummed through the eaves<br \/>\nlike a violin.<br \/>\nIf rain was falling.<br \/>\nTime has puffed out the<br \/>\nflame of their beginnings.<br \/>\nWhere heaven was<br \/>\nwhen they were delivered,<br \/>\nand like all humanity<br \/>\nborn to uncertainty and hardship.<\/p>\n<p>What I have are stories,<br \/>\nthe sound of voices,<br \/>\nbodies touching,<br \/>\nand the confusion of happiness<br \/>\nand catastrophe.<br \/>\nNow being and non-being<br \/>\ncuts them off from me.<br \/>\nA river with no bridge.<br \/>\nOn opposite sides, I hear no call,<br \/>\nno answer to mine.<br \/>\nI have seen nothing,<br \/>\nand turned away<br \/>\nto a geography without them.<br \/>\nWhere years are the milestone<br \/>\nof distance in the same galaxy.<\/p>\n<p>Yet the hands in front of me<br \/>\nare theirs.<br \/>\nThese eyes that see are theirs.<br \/>\nShadows in the woods<br \/>\nare seen the same.<br \/>\nHunger at my plate is theirs.<br \/>\nMy dreams are fashioned<br \/>\nin the same theater.<br \/>\nHolding things they used<br \/>\nand touched I say,<br \/>\nit is not over!<br \/>\nYou are real!<br \/>\nI tuck you in at night.<\/p>\n<p>I cry when I see my mother<br \/>\nwatch her father die<br \/>\nwhen she was six.<br \/>\nMy father confronting his<br \/>\nfather\u2019s suicide<br \/>\nwhen he was ten.<br \/>\nBullets that tore their son<br \/>\nfrom them in war.<br \/>\nMy father confronting his agony<br \/>\nin a vision,<br \/>\nconfirmed by a telegram.<\/p>\n<p>Poverty, worse than most.<br \/>\nFor quests at our table,<br \/>\nmore water in the soup.<br \/>\nWhat a lovely morning,<br \/>\nthis morning in April!<br \/>\nThe world blossoming.<br \/>\nLife composed in my heart<br \/>\nby love with remarkable people.<br \/>\nAt the border of a mythical river,<br \/>\nan empty shore on the other side.<br \/>\nMy hands holding the sunlight<br \/>\nof my life for them,<br \/>\nmy words shivering with love.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I have no knowledge of my parents\u2019 births. Whether sunshine tapped on the window, the wind strummed through the eaves like a violin. If rain&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"more-link-wrapper\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/?p=1041\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Composure<\/span><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1041","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-index-of-all-poems","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1041","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1041"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1041\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4392,"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1041\/revisions\/4392"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1041"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1041"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theodorewaterfield.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1041"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}